Saturday, October 10, 2009

I'm bored

Please understand. Not bored in the "I have nothing to do" way. But bored in the my life is BORING way. I work, I go to the gym (when I can spare a moment), and I'm home with the kids. I don't go anywhere, can't really remember when the last time I went out with friends. Last time Chris and I went out it was May. Seriously MAY!!!!! Really, I have no idea, or a plan for what to do about it. It's awkward and uncomfortable to ask anyone to babysit, they all work for me. I takes my parents and hour to get here to babysit, and then the whole time I spend looking at the time because I feel guilty for them driving home so late.

I HATE Chris's work schedule. Tuesday through Saturday 10-9. He doesn't get home until 9:30. Fridays, gone. Saturday's gone. Plus he's gone all day Saturday so the kids and I are home alone. Then I feel like I can't go anywhere when he is home or we are two ships passing in the night and never get to talk. As it is now, I leave for work at 8am and he doesn't get home most nights until I'm asleep, because he goes to the gym, or goes out with friends from work. We see each other approximately 10-15 minutes a day.

I'm sad, I miss my friends. So many things I like about living here, but moving when I was pregnant in the middle of winter, I never got to know anyone, and when would I go anywhere and meet people.

sigh....